Hello all, I'd just like to tell you that I've moved to another blog. But this blog will always be here though. For sentimental purposes. We should always hang on to memories of the past for it shapes our future! =)

http://amnieadoraazman.blogspot.com/

Ah well. I feel really bad to have abandoned my sweet old blog but now I'm back. My bitching platform will be put into good use again once and for all. But maybe not now. I have too many readings to do. And a presentation.

I'll be back. Right now I'm off to bed. I'm missing my life back home! I miss mommy and daddy! My cheeky bro n sis, my darling dearest boyfriend, and of course, the Malaysian sun.

Durham winds are a bitch. Stupid English weather

Imagine being everyone's emotional toiletbowl .

That's right . Everybody dumps their shit n crap ( metaphorically speaking ) on you and expect you to take it all in . And you don't have a say . So its basically you taking it all in whether u like it or not .

There's a big difference between being a good listener , being there as a friend , and being an emotional toiletbowl .

Also , I am sick of people who misinterpret me . Nothing's wrong with me , or the way I present my speech , its just them . These kind of people should be sent to "interpretation lessons" .  Just to get a basic of idea if you get what I mean .

Argh I'm so tensed now I don't even know what I'm talking about . ( Actually I do , its just that they don't make sense ) But , whatever .

You hear people say that to you almost all the time . People close to you . People who want to get close . People who want to be there for you . People who want to prove that you mean something to them . Or maybe more . It's a subtle way to say " Just call me and I'll be there" . Very sweet gesture . Very noble indeed . You know that even when you're in the deepest of hot waters at least someone will be there to help .

But its not always necessarily true is it ? They say they'll be there for you . Statutory interpretation follows . Is it conditional or unconditional ? Time lags ? Is there a payback factor ?

Sometimes when people come to the rescue it is often a tad late . Or they were caught in circumstances which unabled them to be there immediately . They might expect you to do the same should the situation be reversed . Common courtesy says yes , one good deed deserves another .

So at most times and may I emphasise on most , when people say it , I wouldn't completely reply on it . It pays to get help . Which is why I have to be independent and depend on no one . But when people promise you they'll be there for you , and you take every word for word , then they're guilty of piling up false hopes for you , and you're guilty for being so gullible . Either way , it was never a win-win situation . Sucks huh ? You can't even twist it to your own advantage .

"I thought you'd always be there fo me ?"

"I did , but....... , and you know how it is . You have to understand ."

I guess the same goes for the phrase " I'd do anything for you" . Giving false hopes is one of the worse mental crimes ever . It is even more damaging then afflicting grevious bodily harms . At least that's what I think .

First things first , Happy Birthday Daddy . May God Bless You and Have A Great Year Ahead . I'll Always Be Your Favourite Daughter  =)

Dear God I've had a long day . The longest day in fact after so long . And yes I know , I've been dissapearing from the virtual world as many people hav claimed , but its not that it was done on purpose . I did say there were problems with my internet .

I have so many updates so let me try and sort things out ( hopefully in order ) . At the current moment , I am feeling sluggishly lethargic ( which will be explained later ) . On a general term , after I came back from Petronas' pre-departure camp last 10th July , all I've done is practically waste time and spend too much time outside . But knowing me not being able to sit in one place for far too long , its only natural . I do wanna meet up with all of my friends before i fly . Which falls on 25 Sept .

And my darling dearest Azman's coming on the 23rd ! I'm so happy I can barely wait .

And thank God the money is now banked in . But b4 i do my physical preparation ( shopping , like duh ? ) I need to do my mental preparation first . 

I went to KTJ earlier on . Yes , the official release of the results to colleges . And apparently I was unable to collect my result slip unless I present my receipt of payment of my last term's bill , which I conveniently forgot to ask my dad for . God , what was I thinking ? I so didn't want to come back to KTJ again . So , God bless Phoebe and Alia for being so highly liquid for loaning me money to pay my bill . I could have ignored the stupid policy and wait for the certificate to be posted , but I need the slip to do my visa . And my results ? Its ok . I'll be going to Durham with Aimee . Now I'm just gonna wait for the unconditional offer letter .

I missed the place , the boarding house , the juniors !!! It felt good yet funnily strange to be back cos you know , I don't go there anymore . Damn it they built walkways after we left ?! Grrr... But nothing beats the fact that you're actually OUT of the college . House Singing coming up soon . Irinah's gotta win ! They're singing Stupid Cupid n L-O-V-E . That 's just so adorable don't you think ?

Oh yay , I finally renewed my passport last Monday . I had to go back to the place twice cos I wanted to get the 50% off if I present them my offer letter from my uni . And I got it . God , they were so annoying I swear . My mom's a government servant slaving off to help people , but at the immigration , no one bothered to help me . But hey enough of that .  

I'm just so tired now I could faint . Will blog more from now onwards . Signing off , I wanna spend quality time with my darling Azman . Cheerios !